I was so in pieces, coming up to the end of a relationship in Aruba, I was all shattered. I was frozen emotionally and empty. I was so numb that all verbal abuse felt like a normal procedure. So empty that there were no more tears left to cry no matter what kind of name calling I had to endure.
Christmas has always been my favorite holiday of the year. When I was small, the whole family we would go to church. And after church we would go to the cemetery, afterwards, we would go back home to have a Christmas dinner and after the delicious food it was time for the presents. Even back then as a child the best part of Christmas was not the gifts, but the food. I just love Christmas dinner.
Already as a 2.5-year-old girl I didn´t want or let anybody help me with anything. I wanted to figure it all out by myself no matter how long it took. Mom always recalls this certain day when I was fighting with a thick pair of pantyhose, trying to get them on. She wanted to help me but goes without saying that I didn’t accept help, and I bet it was very funny sight.